Rhage_BDB: *Lying in bed, smiling as @MaryL_BDB traces the tattoo on my back. Amazed at the control she has over @RhagesBeast.*
Rhage_BDB: *Grateful for the communion I have found with @RhagesBeast, the underlying acceptance of having him with me always.*
Rhage_BDB: *Recalling with vivid clarity the horror of receiving @RhagesBeast, the immediate and undying urge to be rid of him*
Rhage_BDB: *I was young, right after my transition, I was… uncontrollable. *
Rhage_BDB: * I had all this energy and strength, and I was stupid with how I used it. Not mean, just… dumb.
Rhage_BDB: * A disaster waiting to happen. And sure enough it did*
Rhage_BDB: *As soon as I picked the owl up off the ground, felt the light weight body, the carelessness of my actions hit me*
Rhage_BDB: *I can still see the red stain as its blood seeped onto its feathers. My carelessness a form of cruelty*
Rhage_BDB: *I was responsible even though I didn’t pull the trigger*
Rhage_BDB: *Feeling wretched, I look around trying to find a good place to bury it*
Scribe_Virgin: *Appearing before @Rhage_BDB, fury overcoming me. My love of birds is well know, but the owl…*
Scribe_Virgin: *The barn owl is my sacred symbol.*
Scribe_Virgin: *Putting a mhis around us. Picking the owl up and breathing life back into it. Sending it back into the night.*
Rhage_BDB: *A tremendous relief filing me when the bird flies away. Feeling as if the slate has been wiped clean*
Rhage_BDB: *I am free, cleansed*
Scribe_Virgin: *Turning to @Rhage_BDB, pointing at him from under my robes*
Scribe_Virgin: *Looking @Rhage_BDB’s face, roaring at him* You have taken one of my most precious possessions.
Rhage_BDB: *Realizing I am not free; I am far from free. My years of behaving without consequence are catching up to me*
Rhage_BDB: *@Scribe_Virgin is going to punish me for this, and her punishments are always severe, often brutal.*
Rhage_BDB: *Knowing I have done a lot more than this, but killing that bird was what finally tipped the scales*
Scribe_Virgin: @Rhage_BDB You shall carry with you a curse to remind you of what you have done here. Two hundred years should be sufficient.*
Scribe_Virgin: @Rhage_BDB No more will you be able to think only of yourself, behaving as impulsively as only a young child should*
Rhage_BDB: *Pleading* Please, @Scribe_Virgin I have realized the consequences of my actions. I shall remain in control.
Rhage_BDB: *bowing head* I am truly sorry, @Scribe_Virgin I made a mistake, a stupid, careless mistake, but give me one more chance. I beg of you.
Scribe_Virgin: *Outraged* Silence! @Rhage_BDB. You dare question me? This just proves your impulsive behavior will never change.
Scribe_Virgin: *Whispers into @Rhage_BDB’s face, so close to him it makes even me shudder.*
Scribe_Virgin: @Rhage_BDB you will be reminded every time you get even slightly out of control*
Scribe_Virgin: @Rhage_BDB you will be visited by a beast so savage even those you love won’t be safe from harm.”
Rhage_BDB: *Fear mixing with dread in my veins. What the @Scribe_Virgin is describing turns my blood to ice*
Scribe_Virgin: *Lifting my arm, my sleeve falling back*
Rhage_BDB: *Seeing a bright light vaguely shaped like a hand. A low-level electrical hum surging through me*
Rhage_BDB: *Feeling something shift inside me, as if my internal organs are being rearranged*
RhagesBeast: *seething at the confinement, lashing out against the restrictions*
Rhage_BDB: *Searing pain filling me, screaming out in agony, forgetting everything around me. The pain so intense I can’t stand it*
Rhage_BDB: *Feeling the low hum slowly turn into a live wire, as though I am holding a power line*
Rhage_BDB: *Thinking I am going to die. The @Scribe_Virgin is destroying me. I killed something she loves. So she is killing me. An eye for an eye*
Scribe_Virgin: *Watching @Rhage_BDB suffering* No warrior, I shall let you live. And for the next two hundred years you will never be alone.
Scribe_Virgin: @Rhage_BDB Perhaps then you will learn how to control your impulses *disappears, leaving the male on the ground*
Rhage_BDB: *Curling into a ball, my body violently splaying out*
Rhage_BDB: *Whatever is inside is too large for my shell of a body to hold*
Rhage_BDB: *Finally finding my voice, my silent screams becoming deafening shrieks.*
RhagesBeast: *Uncurling myself inside @Rhage_BDB’s body, testing my new barriers with no regard to the pain it may cause my reluctant host*
RhagesBeast: *Moving within @Rhage_BDB, positioning myself where I am most comfortable, searing myself into his flesh*
RhagesBeast: *Knowing @Rhage_BDB will always have a physical reminder of me. In his flesh and in his body*
Rhage_BDB: *Rolling over onto my back, hiding the tattoo from view* @MaryL_BDB The beast for the bird, simple and complicated by turns.
Rhage_BDB: *Smiling to myself, the beast is a part of me now and forever. Knowing now I wouldn’t have it any other way.*
RhagesBeast: *Reveling in the surge of contentment as I curl into position along @Rhage_BDB ‘s back, settling home*